...wow, two blogs in one day...this must be a record for me. actually, its past midnight, so i guess its not technically the same day..darn.
tonight i had the opportunity to finally let out some of my struggles and lean on my brothers and sisters in Christ...my volnerability was welcomed with encouragement, understanding, relating, and some well-spoken advice.
i have struggled with trusting the Lord...and wondering if my desires line up with His...and much more on deeper levels. i thought this struggle would cease when i finally could wrap my arms around the Lord and declare that He satisfies me completely. this past year, He has led me to the point where i had the opportunity to declare that just a couple of weeks ago. i could truly exclaim "i am in love with you, Lord!!!!" i really could scream that from the ROOFTOPS right NOW! then...why am i still struggling?
then...tonight it hit me that this area of struggle is not just going to disappear in one day. although i have found the true answer and my true satisfaction, the lies that have been holding me hostage for so many years, have left scars..and they are still holding onto me..and little by little the Lord is helping me to cut these chains off of me!
so...i will not despair...i will HOPE..because i know that one day i will be completely free from this struggle and i will be free! Christ will always have the ultimate victory!!!!
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Thank you for being so honest Pam. I think tonight was huge for all of us. We are in this for the long haul together. Let the healing begin (er.. continue)!!
I appreciate what you said about struggles not disappearing overnight. I don't always like it that way, but I think the Lord wants it that way so we will continue to be dependent on Him. That doesn't make it easier, but maybe in the end we will come out more refined.
I love you, Pamela. Thanks to all for sharing. I like how we all posted blogs after our great night with the Lord;) I think that we don't ever get over a struggle, but it becomes less of an issue so that we can minister to others.
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