an answer in the question...

...Why do I not share my faith more often--or really ever? My question already begins to answer my question. Just look at it--it is covered in Christianese (the language of the every day, subcultured, bubble-living Georgian Christian). I might as well ask myself why I don't blah blah blah more often because that's what people who aren't in my subculture Christian bibble are hearing. And this leads me to yet another answer...We all live in the same culture (sort of). Why do I attempt to separate myself and be in a subculture that only makes me unrelateable to the world around me? Maybe it was years of protection by others and myself...trying to protect myself from the world...instead of infiltrating it. That's what Jesus did. He infiltrated the world, the Jewish culture...not turning from it, but completing it--finishing the story and giving the whole answer. This in turn permeated hearts...and hearts are where I should be looking. People are people and my feable attempt to draw some kind of line between the "good ones" and "bad ones" is ridiculous! Hearts are hearts and the line of truth is the line that reveals our need for Jesus (which is a the bottom of all of our hearts and souls hoping to be discovered). And then I find myself at another answer as my heart swells with pride...and inward self-righteousness that I despise. Pride--the beginning of the end, the root of the soured fruit...looking oh so good on the outside but not able to be swallowed by anyone. Not that I have time to even taste the own fruit I'm dishing out. My days are so full of organizing my life, watching my tv shows, even daydreaming my future that all the time I have for is for me and me and me. Oh how selfish I can be! Why can I not stop focusing on me...and look to others? And another answer surfaces--guilt. The age-old false motivator that sneaks up on me from behind every time. The Gospel is not guilt, its hope. Its freedom. Its sacrifice and selflessness. It reveals the gap and even the playing field. Its complete truth. Its sweet juicy perfectly Holy Spirit ripened fruit. This is the Gospel tha saved me every day and the Gospel that offers salvation to my neighbor, my barista, every heart and person I ever interact with in the world. This is Jesus.